{ I had this very long and vivid dream last night about applying to camp and getting conditionally accepted. I was all excited until I realized that the director had this huge grudge against me and initially insisted on making vague allusions to "cheating" and "shady relationships". I finally realized he was talking about me and Cole. I was pretty offended since it was like--who did he think he was? He didn't know us and I thought it was ridiculous to let me work on a trial basis due to the fact that he felt my past behavior didn't demonstrate "Christian Standards". (Granted it might be arguable, but I honestly don't feel like I did anything wrong despite the circumstances. Sometimes I feel a little guilty because of the whole Marge thing but I still regret nothing.) The kicker is when he finally sat down with me and told me what the problem he had was; I "stole him unfairly away from Marge" and that I should have known better because I was far more physically attractive than her and there was that unfair advantage. I thought that was utterly ridiculous and told him so--but he was convinced that it was my "sinful womanly looks" that had gotten me into this situation. WHATTHEFUCK.

Then, lo and behold, Marge slinked out of  a corner. She was working there too! At MY dream camp! Ok, it's big enough for the both of us... I decided. It turns out she had poured out her whole story to the camp director in a spirit of martyrdom and I was now the big, bad, stupid. Great. The worst part was knowing she probably didn't do it vindictively; she probably innocently got on a rabbit trail about her "trials" endured at school with her weak, whispery voice and ooops....

The worst part was is most of her facts were correct but tinged with emotion so I looked even worse. It was so frustrating....! I was "highly frowned upon" for being with Cole but I really wanted to stay at camp and work. Jeeeeeeze.

I woke up earlier than intended after the dream and wrote a friendly facebook message to Marge to...I don't know. Spite her dream self and make it feel guilty for causing all that troiuble? Hahaha. Well at any rate it's a first step to repairing the casual relationship between us which I guess is important since she is a sister in Christ even if at times she's dull, immature and annoying. *sigh*. }